Acts of Kindness

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I was looking back through our old posts and came upon a couple that we had done as “acts of kindness”. A smile quickly arose on my face because all the memories came pouring back from last summer. We had thrown ourselves in a bunch of different circumstances where we were helping peoples days become a little brighter. I thought that maybe we should bring that back? I mean, why not.

It was a very easy and heart whelming feeling helping people pay their bills, or writing them a little letter and sticking it under their windshield. It was acts like that that made my summer a whole lot better, and for the simplest of reasons.

This summer, I want to try and make as many peoples days as possible, whether it be a hello or holding the door for them; telling someone they look beautiful or asking how they are doing for once. We all get so busy in our schedules and we forget that maybe the people surrounding us have emotions as well. Maybe they are having a bad day or are struggling in some type of way. Its each and every one of our jobs to pay it forward and let people know that they are loved or cherished.

I was reading a story once about a girl who noticed a homeless man sitting outside of a Starbucks. instead of doing the usual gesture of giving the man a couple dollars, she invited him in to sit with her and chat over a cup of coffee. The man, taken back at first, decided to join her. They talked of many different things, but what the girl noticed most is that the man had a lot of hurt behind his eyes, even while he was flashing the biggest grin.

After they decided to part ways, the girl gave him 100 dollars and told him to jumpstart his life, because he has so much potential. He gave her the money back and with it was a note he had written. It said that he had been planning on taking his life that day, but because she took the time to make him realize how beautiful life can be, he decided to make a change.

This girl, who took thirty minutes out of her day, was able to change a mans life forever. I look up to people like that. People who don’t think anything of helping a random stranger overcome their battles. I love that.

So from now on, I will do whatever I can to help people, no matter what they are going through. Hopefully that story acts as a reminder that there are good people in this world. Aside from all the destruction and the awful events that have taken place..taken lives; there are good people and there are good things that are happening. Take part in those amazing things, and take pride in the fact that you are, in some way shape or form, making the world a better place.

I will never forget the moment I realized I loved you.

I find myself always enchanted by poetry.

I am always so fascinated by a person that can write down ten words at most, and explain all the thoughts that I may have, but cant put into words exactly, or the right way.

Sometimes when you can relate to words on a paper, or on a computer screen, you feel a little safer. A little less alone. I know I can sometimes get caught up in my own emotions or feelings, and not sit to think that millions of other people are going through the same thing.

Or, on the other side of things; on the beautiful side of things, poetry is way for you to say “I love you” or “thank you” or “I am thinking of you”. Poetry is so many different feelings crumbled up into a couple lines. Maybe some of those lines rhyme, maybe not, but those lines are works of art.

I have always had trouble putting my feelings into words, or down onto paper. Sometimes I find that I say the wrong thing way too often and the right thing basically never. But I like to relate. I like to relate to the things I read, or the things I hear, to help myself better understand what it is I need to say. Maybe its not much. Maybe all I need to say is an “I love you” or a “thank you”.

because i could watch you for a single minute                                                               and find a thousand things that I love about you

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19 words. nineteen words. a boat load of emotions.

or how about this.

the way i see it, I will either love you forever, or I will forget all about you                           both possibilities are equally terrifying.

Again, a few words that say it all. A book written within two short lines. So many different feelings pour out with the help of these two short poems, and just like that, serve as an explanation for how you feel.

It is a language all in itself, because truthfully, its about the writer. It relies on the writers emotions or feelings entirely. Everyone can do it. It may be easier for some to make their emotions into a type of art, but we all have the back ground to be great at it, because we all have those emotions.

In all honestly, poetry is not a thing of beauty. It is a thing of experience. Experiences of love, heart break, ugliness, hatred, sorrow, despair. What poetry does with all these experiences, good or bad, is that it romanticizes it in a way. So that when we read the experiences of someone who has had their heart broken, we read it in a way that its beautiful.

So I’ll leave you with something beautiful

the truth about                                                                                                                      romance is                                                                                                                                  this: We are                                                                                                                    all novels; our pages stained                                                                                          of either our lovers,                                                                                                      

 or our loneliness 

Just remember to write it down. Sometimes its better that way.

TravEliNG tHROuGh TiMee



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Today, like many other days, the job search begins. I find that when I am not looking, that’s when all these jobs want me to be a part of the magic, but when I am really really trying to find something, they are all hiding. The irony baffles me, but hey, that’s life

Back on subject.

I took a short break from the grueling work day (jokes), and decided to watch a movie that I have never seen before. I went on my HBO GO page and picked the first movie at the top of the alphabet titled “About Time”. Not sure if any of you have ever heard about it or seen it before, but I really truly liked it. I also thought, what world am I living in for not knowing this movie because one of my favorite actresses of all time was in it. Rachel McAdam’s. Babe.

Carrying on.

Its a movie about a guy who lives a pretty boring life until he discovers that he can travel through time. He does not have the ability to change history but he can, in fact, change some of the major, or not so major moments in his life. This movie is basically a decision of what he makes of this gift.

He immediately goes back in time to try and make a girl fall in love with him, but he soon realizes that maybe she is not the one for him. He moves to London to move on with his life and become as successful as he possibly can, as an up and coming lawyer. He finally meets a girl that takes his breath away, and through his time traveling, and quick wit, was able to win her over. The built a beautiful life with one another.

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But what Tim, the main character, realizes soon enough is that his time traveling abilities cannot save him or his family from the unexpected tragedies that affect everyone everywhere in a lifetime.

Tim learns, throughout this whole process, that maybe he didn’t need the time traveling to make the most out of life, and maybe, things just happen…because. It is a funny love story with a touch of sadness, but I thoroughly enjoyed it.

Obviously the movie isn’t a work of fiction, but it taught me a thing or two about the craziness of life. We always wish that we could change how things play out, but in reality that just takes away from the beauty of it all. If we knew how things were going to work, we would never be able to make the most out of the life that we are meant to have.

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“We’re all traveling through time together, every day of our lives. All we can do is do our best to relish this remarkable ride.”

This quote says it all. Stop worrying about what you need to change about the past. Live in the now. Focus on the now. Be in the now.

definitely check out the movie though.

Hobbies

940f82f207635f4910ffc9b163d3501eWhile I have been searching for jobs and babysitting this summer, I have noticed that I get extremely bored, extremely easily. Aside from the weekends, where I am usually traveling, I find that throughout the day that while I am trying to stay on top of my applying game, I twiddle my thumbs, I eat a lot (I eat when I am bored), and watch a lot of movies.

Sounds about right. Any college graduate who isn’t incredibly lucky to have landed a job already goes through this. But what I am trying to do is break the cycle. Yeah, I’m applying, but my god, I need a hobby. What am I to do?

Well, I went and searched the internet for a couple of cost friendly hobbies that are not totally weird.

What I learned from a little research is that, of course, pursuing a hobby not only helps keep stress and boredom away, but it helps to develop more talents as well. It is the best possible way to refresh your mind with something that makes you happy.

Some of the options were a little strange to me, and some just didn’t stand out to me at all. I liked the option to take pictures of nature but I do not have a very good camera for that so I figured maybe later in life. I also liked the hiking option but I like to do that with other people and, well, all my friends already have jobs so no luck there.

So as my hope started to fade, I tried thinking about something that really made me happy, and never seemed to let me down, especially at a time like this, when my boredom has reached an all time high. Well, its food. I love all food. But what I have realized is that I am really not that creative when it comes to straying away from a recipe. I can follow the rules, but I cant color outside of the lines, so my new found hobby is cooking. I want to learn to be a better cook and what better time to learn than when i am out of college and bored out of my mind. Plus it will help me in the long run if I ever want to be a good cook for my family.

I know I am a good baker so I didn’t want to specifically start going in that direction. But I went on Pinterest and found a list of different dishes that really stood out to me. Wow was my mouth watering. So many things stood out to me, from delicious casseroles to stuffed green peppers and different types of dumpling recipes. So I made a list, and today marks the start of my cooking spree.

Excuse me while I hit the grocery store to go get all the ingredients! Im thinking day one may be a complete disaster but I have to start somewhere! Wish me luck! YUM!

Summer Trends 2015

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With summer in full force, and the heat a bit out of control, I have seen many sporting loose and light fitting clothing to stay cool yet flirty for the warm months to come. Whether it is a long maxi dress, or a flowy romper, styles from different generations are coming back into play.

What is cool about 2015 is that so many different styles are welcomed, are there is no exact way that someone should dress. I have always been one who likes to go with the flow of trends but I also like to put my own twist on my fashion so it is nice to see that people are being original this summer.

One of the first trends that I like seeing this summer is a higher wasted maxi skirt mixed with a crop top or a tank top tucked into it. Many girls/women are seen sporting this look but what they do is put their own splash of creativity into it. Here you see a very flirty look of a girl wearing a beautiful yellow maxi skirt (which looks amazing on her skin tone) mixed with a beautiful lace cropped top. The mix of the two makes for a perfect beach vacation date night.

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Another trend that I have been seeing a bunch and is one of my favorite is a loose fitting maxi dress, either paired with a belt to add some shape around the waist, or tide up at the bottom and paired with a pair of cute wedges or strappy sandals.

In the picture below, this girls decided to tie the bottom up and wear a pair of strappy wedges for what seems to be a night out on the town. To dress the outfit up, she added a statement necklace to tie it all in together. Drop the necklace and wedges, and this would be a perfect outfit for a day of shopping or a lunch with the girls.

I am definitely a huge fan of this look, especially in the crazy heat of Summer 2015. 5a1222933c7974d8e22bde3cc4b3740eRompers are probably the greatest things in the world, but I always found that with my body type it is always hard to find the perfect fit. I am a huge fan of the romper below because it is loose fitting but still has a bit of shape to it. Another thing that I love about it is the print, which can either be played up or down, depending on the day or night planned. Because of the pattern, you do not need to wear much jewelry with it and just pair it with some strappy sandals for a fun filled day, but if you are ready for a night out on the town, you can pair it with some bangles and cute wedges. 03c3ee4fed99cd22bf6d6214e18c2777

Last but not least, and one of my personal favorites is this matching top and bottom piece that has just recently become more popular over the summer. I love this outfit because you do not need to worry about matching one or the other with another piece of clothing. Its such a cute outfit for a night out on the town and in this specific outfit, I love the tribal print designs that are placed in great places. The outfit has a lot going on but its the perfect amount. Its a statement outfit that doesn’t need any other big pieces paired with it. Other than a cute pair of wedges or strappy sandals, its a well put together outfit!03d54192d6aabfd4ceb6004f831188aeWhatever you wear this summer, wear it with confidence, and make sure you prepare yourself for the dreadful heat.

FEAR OF THE UNEXPECTED

Well, I graduated from college. Isn’t that cool? Fun? Exciting?

TERRIFYING!

What now? What 9-5 job am I going to be working now? I was always so excited to graduate. All of my friends were holding on for dear life, but I was always anticipating the new chapter in my life. Don’t get me wrong, I still am so excited to start that chapter, but right now, I feel like I am stuck between the flip of a page…not really sure where I want to go next. Maybe, just maybe, I want to re read that last chapter. Replay it all in my mind and go back to see if I could do anything different. Maybe I want to start a new book altogether.

But it doesn’t work like that. As much as I want it to, it doesn’t. Life is a whirlwind of up’s and down’s, unexpected treasures, and terrible decision making.

Why is the real world so scary to me?

09c811e89c054dda57879ccc8b87e7ddb4d69f3e00887c31084f8f278ec40ab3I have been interviewing at a couple different places these first weeks off from school. None of them are what I want. My major was Communication Studies with a focus in Public Relations/Event Planning. I pretty much had this idea of who and what I wanted to be, and then..well…graduation happened.

I don’t know who the hell I want to be. at all.

It is a devastatingly terrifying feeling to not know what you want in life.

You know that moment when you are on a roller coaster and you are inching your way up just waiting to hit that bump and fly back down again? That anticipation that scares the shit out of you but also is really thrilling at the same time?

Every single day. Every moment of every day. I am thinking about when that bump is going to happen to me, and I am going to be thrown into a new adventure, a new 9-5 adventure that we call the real world.

Like I said, Im still flipping the page. My roller coaster got stuck at the top and is just waiting for that moment to hit full speed.

I am not saying I am not ready. I am just saying, maybe it is the fear of the unexpected that makes me cringe a bit.

The fear that maybe I will not succeed. The fear that I might let myself down, or worse than that, the people around me.

But as I sit her thinking about it all, and feeling bad for myself, I’m realizing how completely ridiculous I sound. EVERYBODY goes through this. EVERYBODY gets scared.

Maybe not now, in this exact moment, am I completely happy with where I am, but I know one day I will be successful, and proud, and ready for anything.

This is just a reminder that you will feel scared once or twice… or 500 times in your life, but that will end, and soon the excitement of a new chapter will rush in. A new chapter of ups, downs, roller coasters, and 9-5 real world jobs.